ferinough | Entries tagged with nostalgia

Casper came out when I was about 6 years old. I'm sure I'd watched several Disney films and understood that there was some sort of... men and women dancing and singing together type of thing going on (Beauty and the Beast will always be my favorite!), but this was the first time that I think I sort of began to understand the concept of romance.

I look back on it and laugh hysterically because... it's really kind of weird to fall in love with a computer animated ghost (I accuse Ricci of that, not myself), and if not that, then to fall in love with him later just because he's super hot when he comes walking down those steps as a human, but... I fell in love with him in that moment too. Devon Sawa was my first celebrity crush... and he's kind of creepy now, huh? I loved him in Night of the Twisters, Wild America, and Now and Then.

Anyway, I just remember today I was thinking that it sort of makes sense that I chose that moment, that time to kind of go "AH, there's this thing in the world called ATTRACTION" and such. Especially because I grew up super fast (I got my monthly reminder of womanhood at the age of TEN, people, and that's just not fair), and also because Casper was... a sarcastic, prankster, hopeless romantic, boyish (but strong when he needs to be) kind of guy. I obviously wouldn't be attracted to him now, he was my ideal when I was 6 and it wasn't icky, but I think I find traces of that kind of vibe in the people I choose to like now. The things that I secretly hope for and wait for in my lack of a love life.