you are my center when I spin away

I just had a dream that I was on a college campus taking summer courses. And I was Ninomiya Kazunari.

The "set up" if you will, or what my brain knew, was that Ohno, Nino, and Aiba had been made to join Kanjani8, who were actually a group of American guys I've not seen before. We were all hanging out in someone's dorm while my friend Erin explained to me who each guy was and because I was new I kept getting hit on by them and it was kind of nice even though I was technically Nino (and not hit on by the Arashi guys, damn). They started to sing and I was thinking, "Ohno and Aiba are amazing, they fit in just fine because they sing so well, they're maybe even better than the others."

But the whole time I kept thinking how horribly depressing it was that they had been separated from Jun and Sho. And I was like, "What are Jun and Sho going to do, be like Tackey and Tsubasa?"

So I afterward I talked with Aiba and Ohno and was like, "You know that Jun can get a bit nasal and they use Sho for rap more than they let him sing. It's going to be a disaster, why did they do this?"

Suddenly we're at a huge formal party and Step and Go is playing through a loud speaker, which is PISSING ME OFF because how can they even play Arashi anymore after what they've done to us? Well, even worse, a performance of Love So Sweet starts up on the main floor (we were wandering around the second) and it's Jun, Sho, and some new guy (some curly haired American guy, stupid brain) and the three of us CANNOT stand for that. So we start singing as loud as we possibly can, joining the other two. Sho and Jun look back at us kind of watery eyed, like they missed us, so we just sing even more loudly. Then it gets awkward, because Ohno is supposed to be singing and it's clear the new person is supposed to be taking his place, so Ohno sings his part anyway, fighting so hard to show that no one else should be singing his parts and the new guy keeps going and just sort of stares at him.

We all get pulled away, kicking and screaming as we go. Then suddenly I'm in a classroom again and the professor is some Spanish woman who is freaking out because she thinks Ohno Satoshi just killed himself with rat poison. I'm dying inside.

Then I wake up.


... GOD DAMN IT BRAIN STOP WRITING BADFIC. Also, why do I always become one of the members in my dreams? I want to see them all. :(

Last night I dreamed that I was in Philadelphia, and this huge Statue of Liberty made out of newspaper was suddenly there in the middle of all these buildings. I said to whoever was next to me, "Oh, it's for that movie they're making. Kind of like Cloverdale."

Yes, Cloverdale. I know that's totally wrong, don't correct my dream self.

I knew they were going to light the thing on fire for special effects reasons, and they did. It was really disturbing, but not AS disturbing as the fact that in the next moment, there were planes or... ufos... or something shooting at buildings and people screaming thinking everything was real. Because it was real. Apparently, whoever was attacking did it when they knew this experimental effects thing was happening on purpose. So I started running and trying to find a place to hide, into these small homes that reminded me of something you'd see in like... Florida or something, all with senior citizen floral pattern couches.

I woke up feeling kind of uneasy.

I definitely want to eat pizza today. Let's make that happen.